The days got shorter as our love grew, and our good-byes became harder and harder. I would stand on your steps wishing for just one more kiss. And you would give me that look, like no one else would ever be me. Like I was the moon, sun, and stars. I look for that look in everyone’s eyes but I no longer find it. I long for the days on your couch where kisses were constant and laughs were never far. Where lion king was my favorite movie and you watched my every move. Where I longed for you to sing to me just once, because of some stupid drunken night where you did. Where I longed for you to change with me and not expect anything not to. Where I grew up and you still wanted things to stay the same. Where I found lust in others and lost you and I along the way. Where forever became so much difficult than at the beginning. I still long for the days where I had the love that we shared. I regret the day that I pushed you out of my life. Where I stood there with no remorse and told you that I had moved on. When I told you that I no longer loved you. When I tried to blame it on you, but it was me. It was me that had changed. I no longer wanted that simple love, but I wanted someone that I had to fight for, that pushed me to be better. I wanted someone whose intelligence was always pushing mine. I needed someone who I knew wouldn’t always be there.. because I needed change. I wanted someone that I knew I would lose in the end, but made me feel like everything for the moment. but know I want that simple love, those stupid fights, someone to fight for me, and tell me that they can’t do better. All I want now is love. A love that you hear about, that you see on the streets. The one where it’s always constant and even through the stupid arguments they can hate eachother but still be in love. To come home to roses on my door step and letters that make me cry. To love someone and be loved the way that we did. All I want now is an actual forever.